现在的一切都是我自己一手创造的，从零开始的。我舍弃了很多捷径，但是也满足现在的得到。我没有活在任何人的阴影或庇护下。最后的最后，昨天全部还清，两不欠了。我现在很明确的观点就是，我想要的任何东西，都必定是我通过自己的努力而得到的，而不是来自于任何人的给予或帮助。老话有吃人嘴软，拿人手短。既然人都是现实的，那么我也该随波逐流下，那么些好听的话还是算了吧。疲于持久战，我不年轻了，速战速决，要么同归于尽，要么一活一亡，然后各归各路，后会无期。

不得不感叹，Clot的东西，看的上眼的，有够好看的那价格。口袋两空空，赶紧发工资吧，这日子没法过了。

From today, It's all back to the original

I should have be appreciated but why

I can not stop sobbing, my eyes are full of liquid

I can not stop hurting myself, my wrist are full of scar

I can not stop missing, my minds are full of the memory

I can not stop caring, my heart are ripped into pieces

I can not live without you.

I am not sure this can be readable, but I can not stoping writing

I can not stop to focus on other things. All I want to do is to be end. Death is the best way of releasing.

I was told that the most cruel thing is your death.

No, I deny.

The most heartbroken thing is When I am actual alive, But you already treat me as the dead.

But I know, such is fact.

This is the only way I was left.

Maybe, I have to go, that is the last option I own.

I am leaving not for I do not love you, that is why, I can not love you more, So I have to.

Leave you in happiness with the similing I love in the evelasting memory.

You are unwilling to smile for me anymore, I read the desperation from your eyes those I really get lost in. I can not face it, so I escape and understand the marble ending.

I never admit I love you, cause I never feel confident to say it out.

All will be with me in the rest of my life

May I rest in peace together with these secrets.

Someone says life is a journey, no matter what the destination is,the most important is the scenery along this long road.

I met an angel with evil's soul. chaning a lot.

I feel tangly and do not know how to be normal.

When I listen to Gackt, I feel a lot inside, he have gone through a lot. thus make his song sensational. I am moved to cry out many times, especially when I feel blue.

Gackt san, Maybe I lost my angel this time. We feel fragile.

This make me want the ending.

I admit I am coward.

Then, some one laugh.